In part 4 of Fiona’s journey, she comes to the realisation that restriction is an addiction….it is not the food, it is the behaviour!
I’ve not posted about my Transformational Nutrition journey for a couple of weeks. If I’m honest it’s been tough – I’m loving the self-discovery and learning to be curious about my habits around food but it’s not always easy. Nor should it be I suppose – undoing a lifetime of bad habits is never going to be easy!
The big focus for me over the last couple of weeks has been restriction. One of the main things I’m learning is how to remove food restrictions and to allow myself to eat what I want when I want, whilst trusting myself to mostly make the right decisions and stop when I’ve had enough.
You’d be forgiven for thinking that if you were given free rein, it’s likely you’d eat rubbish all day – these were exactly my thoughts too!
But by removing restriction and opening yourself up to all foods, I’m beginning to realise that the desire to overeat does diminish. We only crave what we can’t have.
I’ve always been fairly good at letting myself have what I want, there’s hardly anything I’d consider off limits (apart from what I don’t like) so I thought it would be a walk in the park, and to be honest some of it has been. What I didn’t think about though, and what’s taken a bit more time and effort to notice, are the less visible forms of restriction.
For example, I told myself yesterday that I could sit and have my lunch when I’d tidied the kitchen and emptied the dishwasher. In other words, I had to earn my lunch!! It was an automatic thought that I’ve had a million times before but because of the work I’ve done so far, I noticed the thought and was able to think about what I was doing. I still tidied the kitchen and emptied the dishwasher but I was conscious of what I was doing and spent that time thinking about why it was that I had the thought in the first place.
These habits are so ingrained in us that we don’t always see them and don’t realise the damage they are doing. I’m starting to remember that food isn’t a reward, it’s delicious fuel that keeps us alive and healthy.
Restriction is an addiction and I think this may be a tougher one for me to crack.
You can follow Fiona’s full journey here.